40 and fat, but not for long!
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
Feeling a bit better about it all
Yesterday was actually ok. I didn't do perfectly like I wanted (that is the perfectionist in me talking) but I did ok. Today, almost feels doable. I peeked at the scale and I was down two pounds, which tells me that I didn't pour the calories in as much and am doing ok. I can do this, I can do this, I can do this.
Monday, May 16, 2011
This is IT!
I've put my foot down. 305.5 and no more. Am I crazy? Why do I do this to myself? Instead of beating myself up, I am going to just get on with it and do something about it AGAIN. Today is the dawn of a new day. I want to feel better and fit better into my clothes to begin with. After that, I can worry about going down in sizes. I have got to show some restraint. God, give me the power to control myself with food today, the entire day!
Friday, May 13, 2011
40 and a day...a new start
Yesterday I turned 40. I told myself when I turned 39 I would be fit and trim for my 40th birthday. FAIL. Although I have lost some of my weight, I have been screwing around for months. Last year, on my 39th birthday I was 331 pounds, this year I am 300 pounds. It sounds great, but the low I hit this past year was 257, so I have gain more than 40 pounds back. YUCK! I don't want to be this fat mother anymore. I want to be able to inspire my children to be active and eat well. I want to feel good when I am around my husband, not huge. I want to walk and talk with confidence again. I want people to notice and talk to me and not act like I am invisible. I don't want to have to buy 3x or 4x clothing. I hate this.
So, this is my pledge. I want to focus on my health and get fit AGAIN. And more importantly, stay that way. I need some accountability.
Kris
So, this is my pledge. I want to focus on my health and get fit AGAIN. And more importantly, stay that way. I need some accountability.
Kris
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